A lot of you guys may have realized I have been very inactive in SNG Servers and steam, gaming in general. There has been a lot of stress and shit going on my life right now and it is very personal but I have found a safe place in this community and I am willing to share it. Most of my friends don't even know this. When I was around 7-8 years old I watched my,father beat my mother physical and I remember a moment my mother grabbed me and held me crying in a locked door while my father was breaking the door down. My father went to jail for a while and when he was released he was put on custody and still is today. Me and my,mother moved out to live with a friend of hers and a few years later when I was 11 or so I remember a day my mother said something along the lines of "If I am gone you need to be able to take tare of yourself and your sister" at first I didn't realize what that meant til the very next day, my, mother commited suicide in the room I was asleep in and I just saw her body hanging from the ceiling. Then I had to live with my aunt because even though my father was out of jail I couldn't live with him. I lived with my aunt for 2 years Then was finally able to live with my father. But recently I've had so much stress and shit going on and I keep remember these traumatizing moments and how shit my life is going, I had suicidal thoughts. I recent tried to take my life a few days ago. I never knew how hard it is to live being suicidal and why people do it until now, there is so much shit you can't explain in words and I will probably never be able to express it due to the fact my father action and the way I have been treated my whole life. There is a permanent burden I will have to live with for the rest of my life. It is very hard but the reason I haven't taken my life was because there is someone special to me and I want her to be happy and not go through what I went through and try to make her life as enjoyful as possible. I will be leaving SNG and gaming in general to try to pursue something that makes me really happy so I can try to enjoy the rest of my life. This was very hard for me to say and it was very personal and I would like to thank everyone who has support me for the past almost 3 years on my journey and I would like to say thank you to these people
@Satellite Heated Naan
@The Underused Character
I would like to greatly appreciate you guys and sorry if I forgot you. And someone of you guys may be like wtf y did he tag me even though I was a fucking cuck and a dick and an asshole in the beginning the punishments I was given made me realize and change for the better. I have matured and hopefully will continue to.If anyone doesn't like me or whatever I'm sorry for the way you feel,if it was my fault I would genuinely like to apologize. Its been really great time with everyone in the servers. Hopefully you guys understand.
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